A Midnight, Night Too Late

Reach, reach

Midnight, a night too late

He said he would wait

But she was a day too late

Now the reality she has to face

The regret in her face

Why didn’t she say what needed to say

Perhaps she was scared, lost, ashamed and afraid

That the love of her life would judge her in a interesting way

She assumed

She made assumptions bringing to life of what she thought was in his mind

How would she ever find what goes on in his mind if she doesn’t speak what she feels

Sometimes words heal

Sometimes words reveal

The emotions we see as a visual brought to life

Expect

She had expectations and expected him to understand

She expected him to “know better”

Now she’s a midnight too late

Well isn’t that great!

Just to think their last night could have been one for the books

Reach!

As she tries to reach

One more try,

One more cry only to realize that

He’s unreachable

Leaving his yesterday behind

Waking up to a new day

A new day without her

He’s so far away,  yet so close

Meanwhile her yesterday still remains today

The pain

The reality

That she was only a midnight, night too late.c548d1a2952028da6f4c206c4e514334

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Three-Six-Five
My oh my does time fly
Time to officially say,
Goodbye to 2017
The year of
Growth
Disappointment
& Love
Lost a few friends
Outgrew
Outgrow
What was not meant to stay
To them I say thank you for the memories we created once upon time
The bond we had has gone
She met amazing people who have been great and remain to influence, push and support her each day
This has been bittersweet more sweet than bitter.
I’ll never forget the day the lord called me
To wash away all my sins I must say
Since then my life hasn’t been the same
I lost love
I found love
I found purpose in what it is I love
Twenty eighteen Sweet twenty eighteen
I pray my dreams my goals are much closer than I expect
I ask God for direct direction
As what I build in this life is a reflection
My legacy for my family
For my unborn children
2018
Crystal Bri
Got this
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I wish you all pure blessings and guidance in the new year, congratulations you made it! Now let’s get it, let’s grow.
Always love.
-Bri

Me and Mine, a Love That Will Never Die

Lay down
Rest your eyes
Keep in mind you got one life
Take it easy
I know it’s not easy
As you close your eyes
You still can’t sleep at night
Anxiety has you tight
Remember the first time you found out that you were capable of producing life
You probably thought the time wasn’t right
The most high said otherwise
You survived, excited, anxious as to who you’d look like
And now this life which is your life
Relies on you to make it through even though hard times sometimes get a hold of you
Silent cries at night
Little one takes your hand and says
“Mama it will be alright”
Innocent voice
Innocent life
Should be the motivation to get you by
You have purpose
Those kids deserve
Your drive
For it’s your mission to give them a better life
Be wise when hard times arise
Think of them to get you by, the funny things they do out of the blue strangers often say “awww how cute”
Even those who haven’t yet produced life
Keep building so your empire is built right
Plan to prepare
Your future is bright
So promise me one thing
No more sleepless nights

Trying to figure out why things may not be going right

Dead beat baby father who promised to be by your side and in his childs life
You swallow your pride
With the reminder that you’ll always
have a reason to smile
YOUR CHILD

After all they are the one that knows what your heartbeat feels like from the inside

 

You are the Dream

Stand tall

Stand strong

Stand and come together as one

You are

We are

So capable of dreaming into reality

With Big dreams and big things

It’s my time now

It’s takes

compassion

passion

Love

And

Consistency

Otherwise it’s only a dream

Waiting to see it’s reality

Its purpose

You are

WORTH IT

they say no

You say yes

Because He says yes

Who God bless no man can curse

You’ve been put on this earth

For a reason, and many seasons

To fulfill the seed that was once planted

Years a go

Now you’re the growth that society can’t wait to see

Remain to seek sunshine and water consistently

I promise you that’s all you’ll need

Strong mind

Positive mind

You control what you allow inside

You choose to have your problems arise or run towards it and have them fall one day at a time.

The wind is strong but the breeze of life is what satisfies us all.

It’s okay to crawl before we learn to walk

The beauty of it all we fail, we cry, to one day smile and shine

Then we wipe those tears and take away our fears to remind ourselves to live in the moment of time and not rewind, or change what was, but to make the best out of what is

and what’s to come

Remember

You’re a seed

Seeking growth

For that everyday we wake up a new life has begun to start over,

it’s not over

You have life, I won’t lie

it bites,

but as long as you’re still alive you still have time to shine.

So stop running, inhale, exhale take a breather relax

You’ll be just fine, continue to have faith in the most high.

You are the one that defines what lies behind that beautiful smile of many seasons in which wasn’t easy but you

Stand tall

Stand strong

Confident in which you are

The sky is not the limit, there’s so much more beyond it.

You are the dream

Say to yourself

“I am the dream”

 

 

 

 

Image by Firda Istania

No More Rain

The sun is out,

finally the sun is out.

This was beauty to my eyes

Its been a while since I’ve seen the clear blue skies

No more rain, no more dark clouds

For my sunshine has come, and there is no more rain in this cloud

I met you, a dream come true,

I’ve dreamed of you before

We spoke, we talked, we had deep conversation

You seduced me with your mind

It was knowledge to my eyes

You caught me by suprise

Let’s just do it, let’s fly alway

arrive in the tropics

Walk the beach until sunrise

Yell to the world, “you’re all mine

You do more than just make me smile

For my sunshine has come, and there is no more rain in this cloud

Love is life

Life is free

Take a ride of life with me

Free your mind

While with me

One day,

you will see…

 

 

Image by Keith Connor – Wet Kisses

Someone or Something is Missing

Tossing and turning

She’s yearning for the love she has not yet received

Loved by many

Blinded by the one that should love her the most

Something is not right

It’s something she can’t see in sight but a feeling she feels within her mind

She’s smiling backwards laughing inwards

She’s missing not someone, but something or could it be someone she’s known for many years, the thought of it just brings her to tears

Where did that person go, the love of her life no longer in sight

All those memories, she holds on tight

“Bring back that night where I fell in love for the first time”

She wants to rewind but realized with time you move forward not to go back but to create new memories with that someone you want back.

Not a lover, someone closer, someone’s who knows her best. She never once told a secret, she’s always kept it safe in a special place

The heart

A form of art that says more than what we see, hear or feel but a connection that only YOU yourself and one day your unborn child will understand this connection.

Now do you understand who she was missing all along?

Herself

There physically

Lost mentally.

But wait, there is a light that shines..

You’re special, keep smiling.

She’s found her again.

Floral Essence

She’s something like a flower
So delicate, beautiful, and at peace
as she walks the wind blows her beautiful curly hair with ease
She stands out like no other you’ve ever seen
something like a flower that when the wind blows
the flower manages to stay in place something like her
she holds her own when the breeze is strong
That doesn’t mean she doesn’t need love from the sun above
It gives her light, to grow just like him the “sun” in her life
Out of all the flowers in the garden he managed to pick her up
and give her more life.
He continued to water her and witness this beautiful creation from the most high
He will not let her die or dry up from thirst, he’ll never leave her empty from love, his job is to fill her up pour out his heart like water from a flower pot, non stop
Watch her grow, each day he captures something new
Too soon?
Right on time, “I can’t lie this connection is deep just flower, sun, and water is all she needs
you, me and love to feel complete

she’s awake because this dream is reality all the pretty flowers in the garden yet he fell in love with she,

Started off as a seed now he gets to witness the
Floral essence of she, where she now feels free.

Things That Remain Unsaid

Late night phone conversations

Silent pauses don’t keep me waiting

I’m falling into a deep sleep

Then you speak and say that you heard the words of me saying “I love you”

I quickly responded

“I didn’t say that out loud”

Now you’re in my head? because in reality those are the words I said..

My heart dropped

*deep breath*

I’ll admit

It’s you that I want

I got you, I love you

And I mean that from the bottom of my heart

Those words are hard to come out

Maybe I’m scared, so I should say I’m scared but you say, “Have no fear my dear I won’t leave you alone wherever you go I’ll go.”

His words not mine

You know how I feel which it is real

The time has come to recognize the truth the truth that I love you 

I give thanks to my maker for you my dear.

Just a snippet of what he’s said to reassure me that this love is safe.

More things left unsaid that I’ve said in my head but to shy to tell you my true feelings that I feel in my heart

as write I feel warm inside

You give me butterflies 🦋

I pray this love never dies

For its you I hope to spend the rest of my life with..

Clarity

Living through someone else’s dreams

Just to see them happy,

Slowly drowning in silence

A battle between herself and fear

She’s always wanted the best for the ones whom she loved

She realized you could want the best for them but in the process she needs to toughen up

Let them know that she supports your dream, but her dream isn’t your dream although there are similarities

She shows consistency in ways that many people are too blind to see, who are they to judge?

She does it for she

Not to please or have anyone doubt her dream

Tough love is LOVE, but she knows the difference when someone is being rough

She would never try to sabotage someones dream especially if she too has a dream that she’s in the process to achieve

She thought they were on the same page but when things went left, she got slapped in the face

She became vulnerable at a time where she needed space and that one person closes to her didn’t understand nor didn’t care to ask if everything was okay

She didn’t care for sympathy,  or follow up to say how is everything going but instead tell her everything she was doing wrong instead of making things right,

You see she knows when to admits her wrongs but at this time she sees no fault perhaps that person was too caught up, too blinded to ask her what’s wrong

this experience showed her clarity of reality that no one is going care for you more than YOU care for you.

What sets us up most in life is expectations of when you go through a rough time we expect our friends to be there like you did for them

She realized that in the past when a friend was in need she didn’t do it because she would want to expect the same in return but because she actually cared and hate to see her friend stressed and hurt

She tells herself  “People wonder why I don’t talk or express as much as I use to, because in the end of it all no one is going to care but you.”

She’s content that everything happens for a reason

Everyone has their season

In this case what we needed was clarification, and communication

Now she leaves it up to God, in which she knows he does no wrong.

 

Visuals Come to Life

There was a time in her  life where she would visualize about the perfect guy

She realized when she opened her eyes, she had him in mind.

He was right there all along, they started off as friends and became something more

“You’re too much” is what she would say, his response would be “I’m more than enough”

Which is true she feels God has blessed her with him,  she feels this is true.

He knows how to make her smile, at times when she feels blue most of the time he has no clue

He came at the right time, when everything in her life seemed lost, she felt lost, she was lost,

In need of clarity, at times she would tell him “she’s not ready” to take it to the next level of what they could be

But he believed in her,  he was patient and still is, that means more than words can speak…. the world to her

Often times she doesn’t speak but he seems to understand her,  She speaks with action and emotion

This love language of hers is something special and quite hard to define.

End result of all this “you’re officially mine and I’m officially yours.”

Last night he expressed a meaningful word that she will keep close to her heart, for he brought her visuals to life.