I am the one

IMG_1919Worthy so worthy
Glorious beyond words
*Takes a deep breath*
Go it’s now your turn
To unwind her mind
He’s so kind but take your time
What is mine will be mine
She ask, “What’s your purpose in my life?”
He replied,
“For you to eventually become my wife”
Sounds nice, but this feeling, is it right?
Thoughts of caution scarred from previous relations with other men who said this and that with no action to back up those beautiful words that left her hurt
Until she met you, she wants to believe you are true because you accept everything she’s been through
Man of God
That’s all she wanted and she’s found it in you.
Could it be?
Him, the man of her dreams
He makes her feel safe in ways it’s hard for her to embrace
please stay and don’t go
she feels you’re the one worth fighting for.
All she ask is be patient with her because she’s quiet and her guard is up
She’s a dying flower that needs to be filled will love
But she remains strong even though the storm is rough
You make her laugh because, well yes your amusing
Your sense of humour gets her going
She looks at a photo of you and her and calls it love
Your eyes staring at her smile
That’s more than enough
Just remember her heart is fragile
No you don’t take advantage
You continue to show her
That’s she’s worth
Every scar
Every bruise
He’s your human bandage to heal those wounds
He’s the kind of man you bring momma to
He said he’d do anything to prove that there is no need to worry
“I am the one for you.”

 

 

What they really want?

Never had she experienced love

What is love?

A word that cannot be explained 

But a feeling of climax not when we touch 

But when our minds touch feeding her knowledge, wisdom into her empty heart of impenetrable guard 

no man could pass the test because she hasn’t yet met the man who can compliment her dreams and aspirations all they really want is her body which

Curiosity, has it’s part
Is it just her body?
Or does it include her heart?
We can’t make moves until she’s sure

Not for sale so you can choose to wait

So what do you really want?

Just be straight up

because she will NOT waste no time with a man although he may be fine. 

Can you seduce her with your mind?

More than just making her smile

At her age she’s pretty wise

So you decide, am I

or sorry

“she” the apple of your eye?

Only time will tell.

So tell me,

what do you really want?

 

 

He Listened

He listened

He cared

I never ever had to reassure that he was there

not physically but just so he can hear my cry

when everyone around me seems to be blind

I talk and they’re there but not listening to the words I speak.

They ask why I don’t speak as much as I use to, a waste of breath

So I rely on him, I go to him.

He’s there whenever I need him, literally a phone call away

So why do I stray away at times?

This path is not easy but I’m trying,

trying my best, I’ve been put through a test

but you still accept me at my worst and I will give you my best

as I write, the words just flow

I’ve had writers block for quite sometime now.

Lost in my thoughts, spaced out

Take a deep breathe

I’ve been reassured that everything will be alright.

Born Again

Long overdue

I gave myself to you

Yes its true

I washed away all my sins, therefore I’m born again

I chose to do right by you

After all I owe you

I love you, and you love me like no other.

I’ve realized that no other name put’s joy where there is pain

You gave me life,  you gave me purpose

This life I know I deserve it,

It’s my time now

They all will see.

When I was lost

The world stopped,

but I thank him for never giving up on me

You continue to believe in me

My first true love is no other than the man above.

Can you hear me?

Can you hear me?

My lips aren’t moving

I speak through music which elevates me

I listen to the melody of what I have chosen

So when I’m upset listen to the words

of the song of “Where I wanna be”

because

when you love you someone, you just don’t treat them bad, oh how I feel so sad now that I want to leave.”

It’s crazy because I would never give up on “This Luv”

This song I send to you as a sign that we shouldn’t give up as I was

“Thinking about all the changes we been through
and I know it might sound crazy but I’m still loving you in spite of all the simple things
We been through.”

You have left me speechless so that’s why I send you music to express my love to you

We made music in ways that was amusing my coach and my love it seemed as if I had the whole bundle in one.

What I thought was love wasn’t lust but perhaps a sign for me to really wake up

Blinded by what we had in common, I simply thought he was the one.

“Love is blind and it will take over your mind, what you think is love, is truly not
you need to elevate and find”

Wise words spoken true, so deep that it hits you

In my zone all alone, press play and a old Kendrick song comes on

“Every time we get into it I’m the one that’s feeling stupid ,

You don’t need me, you gonna leave me,

that’s ya favourite threat

Why you never know how it feel to be lonely?

Why I feel I’m the last option after ya homies?

Why you always gotta know that I will never let you go?

Sometimes…

We hurt people that love us
Love people that hurt us”

Are you inspired? Is it true

“We hurt people that love us
Love people that hurt us”

Look at the beautiful picture listed above,

looks like love,

still in time

it captured something that was in the moment

but the beautiful melody of this song of where I write my wrongs

and turn it into life without explanation, let the melody do the talking

Can you hear me?

Do you understand me?

Without the conversation?

Once a upon time I was sending you

“I gotta be”

by Jagged Edge

now I play to myself

“Gonna get myself together

and let the lord make it better,

I can hear his voice, calling me”

A feeling with that is not necessary with words,

just me with my headphones in my ears.

Do you feel me?

Don’t talk to me while I enjoy

The beautiful melody that touches my soul,

Unless you know how to connect with me without any words

lets enjoy this rhythm and perhaps we will tell a story

and with music I feel

whole.

 

 

 

Love of my life

Opened my eyes, I’ve now realized

I am the love of my life. 

I finally let go of what was emotionally draining me inside

so close to the edge of promises of false hope

signs that I was sure of, to re-tie this rope

I must have been on dope, a little too high in the sky’

It was time to really let go

ahhh I hear God talking to me saying

You think I would have you let go of something YOU thought was the best and not bless you with MY best? My dear this was just a test, I had faith in you my child, that was not love, I am love and you are loved. Let me take care of it, it was lesson  I hope you learned, it’s time to move on because that chapter already took its turn.”

Those words, kept me alive

at some point I felt I was dying inside

He’s right, it’s my time to shine

I am still here, I have survived.

Self love is the best thing that ever happened to me

I mean I have alway loved myself, but not to this degree.

I am the LOVE OF MY LIFE. 

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Remember to always be the love of your life and practice self love, I mean we do love ourselves right? But love yourself enough where you know your worth , never settle and never put yourself second. Remain to put yourself first, because if no one has ever told you, let me be the first, YOU ARE WORTH IT.

Kintsukuroi

What a beautiful disaster.

Ever saw yourself in a ugly situation where you simply thought there was no way out or this could possibly mean the end?

Yeah, I have!

The beauty of it all is YOU got through it. In the moment we think omg how could this be? but one thing I realized in every catastrophe or problem you may have

there happens to be a beautiful side to your situation that often times we are too blind to even see. 

In Japan when something cracks they tend  to fix it with gold! How beautiful is that?

Let me elaborate it is said that when Japanese mend broken objects they aggrandize the damage by filling the cracks with gold. They believe that when something suffered damage and has HISTORY it becomes more BEAUTIFUL. What a beautiful way to look deeper into your not so good situation and turn it into a positive one. 

Yeah you’re probably thinking

Well okay when pottery appears to be broken/cracked in Japan they just fix it with gold dust. What does that have to do with my real life situation?

Open your mind, as simple and creative the Japanese theory is, the outcome is turning something that may have had no value to it anymore and making it beautiful again.

Now do you feel me? Something in your life may have “cracked” or appear to be “broken”

It’s time now to use your creative side and make it beautiful again with the reminder of the scars you will have to embrace the struggle you went through to get to where you are today.

Remember!

God is the answer to all of our problems, he is the one who can definitely put us through a lot and manage to help us see the beauty in it, even if we don’t realize this at first. 

That is the beauty of it.

Remember God would not put you through a situation that you couldn’t handle, continue to trust in him and I promise you that he will deliver.

I’m Every Woman, I am Superwoman

I AM every Woman

Phenomenal

Confident

Courageous 

and a

Ambitious

Woman.

Here I stand proud

Often times I think out loud

For I have a voice

It will be heard

She’s somebody’s QUEEN

juggling life she makes it look easier then it seems

She screams

It’s time now to face reality

She’s strong, and yet still life goes on

Bounce back like no other because God is her strength and no one can stop her

She came to conquer what is hers in life

and no

She will not lose, but win on her own timing

There is no limit as to what she can do

for the sky is NOT  the limit, there is so much more beyond it.

Thats why often times they call her Superwoman

because when you need her she’ll be there faster than you can count to 10

While still making sure everything she needs is under control

She will never allow herself to get stuck in that hole

She’s experienced the hard times for a reason

Why go backwards if you were only meant to go through it for a season

Experience made her

Stronger

Wiser

Smarter

in closing she sings

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I am every woman, it’s all in me.

 

FOR ONCE SHE WAS HAPPY.. PT.2

I remember when I met you, I looked right passed you

only to find out that we’d end up in the same room just us two plus one.

I got to know you and you got to know me. I said to myself, “he’s very well

spoken” but let me not think nothing of it, for I was there to focus.

Our session was done, I walked you halfway to your car and I also noticed a shooting star.

As we were about to go our separate ways I was hoping you’d ask for my number so we

could stay… in touch, but instead you asked me for my Instagram, I admit I was caught off

guard but you played it right.

Hoping I’d see you again soon, maybe later on that night,

you ended off what was our first encounter with a hug.

Somehow you were stuck heavy on my mind, then you messaged me a few days later “hey, whats up”

I replied, “nothing much” hoping he would ask me out on date.

He did, more than once than we became more than just the first date

You were my mate, my other half, my best friend and my love

I wish someone told me “Girl slow down before you get blinded with love.

Take your time if he’s true he will forever be for you

So don’t rush, I know its tough it seems like you’re already in too deep.”

I wish I listened

I wish I heard

I guess this was going to be my first time I’d really feel my heart burn

I cried just as much you lied

I thought we were ride or die

You was my KING and I was your QUEEN

I mean thats what seemed to be.

Love it was love and now I’m crushed

They say the first love is the deepest

which is true, its taken me sometime to truly get over you

I found someone who’d I known was there all along

and had my back through it all

I realized it was time to cater to him more

and with that being said he’d open more doors

For once I was happy because I found God.

Stop Running

There comes a time in our life where we forget to STOP and realize the problems that lie right before our eyes.

So we drink, party get into relationships and get high,

we try to compromise certain things so we can get by

Welcome To The Adult Life

where you choose to have your problems arise or run towards it and have them fall.

The wind is strong but the breeze is what satisfies us all.

It’s okay to crawl before we learn to walk

The beauty of it all we fail, we cry, to one day smile and shine

Then we wipe those tears and take away our fears to remind ourselves to live in the moment of time and not rewind, or change what was, but to make the best out of what is and what’s to come

For that everyday we wake up a new life has begun to start over, it’s not over

You have life, I won’t lie

it bites,

but as long as you’re still alive you still have time to shine.

So stop running, inhale, exhale take a breather relax

You’ll be just fine, continue to have faith in the most high.

Stay calm, eyes open

and enjoy the waves of the ocean.